i had a God awful day today because i couldn’t stand looking at your face. it breaks my heart seeing you happy with life. like i didnt even matter to you. like i still don’t. i am nothing but a piece of ass to you. you made that clear to me last night. seeing the way you look at her. you may not want to admit it but you have feelings for her and that hurts more than you know. i dont talk to you about whats wrong because it is you. you may want to be friends. and because you need one and don’t have any i will be but dont expect much more from me. i wont tell you all my secrets.
why do all my guy best friends like me? i am not going to stay here long 4 years max but yet they all seem to get attached. they are my best friends. and i will always love them, but i will only love them in a best friend way. they say you fall in love with your best friend. yes.. well do you think you could tell me which one that would be because there is a few.
my parents are getting a divorce. my dad is the reason i am not killing myself. i love him and he needs someone. my parents were divorced once before and my sister and i went with my mom. i was too young to remember all of it but i do remember some of it. my dad was in a rough patch for a very long time after loosing my sister and i. i am choosing to go with him this time. my parents are fighting like crazy they can’t have a single conversation that doesn’t end or start with a fight. i love my mom i do. she doesn’t know that i am going to go with my dad mainly because she will flip out when she finds out. i live overseas right now and we are leaving here soon i will be in Virginia by August. they both said that they will see what happens when they get there because they can’t file anything right now due to all the problems it will cause with us leaving so they are going to wait. but i don’t know how this is going to work. they are both going to live in Virginia because it will be my senior year and neither of them wants to miss my senior school.
the month of may is going to kill me! i have so many things i have to do it is crazy.
i really hate her and you know that. but just because we broke up you think it is okay to rub it in my face that you think she is hotter than i am. and you like her. you too are about to be on my hit list and be careful because you are creeping right above her.
my ex and i recently broke up because i cant handle him getting so worked up when i can not hang out with him due to my parents not wanting us to date because he is suicidal, depressed, and sees a therapist or us to. what a great southern family i was raised in. to be honest it is actually just my mother and may i say she can go a bit over board some times… well who am i kidding she goes over board all the time. But when we were talking about braking up he called me stupid and ignorant. after that i told myself to leave him alone and to just let go. because honestly i was moving to California and he is going to Johns Hopkins for college. we are on opposite sides of the United States. It wouldn’t have worked out. we were going to be too far from one another and we already fight enough as is. I love him, but i wasn’t going to hold up his life. Anyways later that night after he called me stupid and ignorant i found i am moving to Virginia instead of California. have to love the random moving of the military. But now i am starting to think that since we are moving closer we could work. only thing is we broke up. i want to talk to him and try but he seems happier now. it has only been a week since we broke up. i can’t stand not talking or being with him but it was my choice to stop talking to him. i know distance is the only way i can get over him but i don’t want to and i can’t not seeing him every day. i am so heart broken i would honestly kill myself if it weren’t for my dad.